A new canvas for us

So our journal finished.  For a moment, I thought we would buy a new one.  Because you seem quite interested in continuing to write.  But I guess we can just continue elsewhere.  For me, I want to continue typing it here.  Honestly, because I can think better and write better and faster here.

We are officially a couple for more than 3 months now.  And it still feels like a dream sometimes.  Like I will wake up and find out that we have not actually been going out together, we have not actually been dating.  I will feel scared then.  I don’t want to lose you.

Today, we both cried.  But I think it is not a really bad thing.  Because after we cried, we realized what was most important to each other.  Loving each other and doing all we can to keep each other from crying.  When I see you cry, I feel so sad and I don’t want to see you cry again.  And I know you feel the same way towards me.  So we will both try harder to love each other better. 

My dear, I have always been a bit insensitive.  But I am trying very hard, since even before we are together, to try and be more sensitive.  I’m sorry that I am still insensitive.  I promise again, that I won’t be so soft-hearted with others.  Not just girls.  But do you realise?  Ever since you told me, I have already tried to be more resolute and firm.  Just not enough yet.

My dear, continue to support me…  If I am not firm enough, please help me be more firm.  But don’t scold me for being irresolute.  When you tell me, I will realise and I will do all I can.  Sometimes, I really don’t realise.  That is why I need you.

You are my koala, you are my sunflower, you are my wife, you are my love.  Please love me always.  And I promise I will love you always too.