What does driving and plating badminton has in common? They require utmost concentration. If I don't focus in driving, I will die. If I don't focus on badminton, I lose.
What does washing dishes and cleaning my house have in common? They are such mundane tasks, I can do them without much concentration.
What am I trying to say?
There are times when I absolutely need to drive or play badminton. Sometimes I really need to take a long drive all the way to KK. Because those are the times when I am very down and depressed, and I know that no matter how much I think about my troubles, I won't solve it. So I just need to forget about them. By doing something that requires my utmost concentration.
There are times when I absolutely need to clean my house or wash the dishes. Those are the times when I am very troubled, but I need time to think. I believe that when I do extremely mundane tasks, I will free up my mind to think about my troubles.
Just now, I played badminton but somehow I thought a lot. Maybe that's why I lost. Because somehow now, I can't concentrate.
老婆... If you will still have me, I want to continue being with you. I still wanna marry you. And I still wanna spend the rest of my life with you. Because truly, I'm sorry. And I want to apologise for scolding you. For being emotional this few days. For forgetting stuff.
Please forgive me. I want to love you more. I want to try harder. I want to make notes and take ginkgo to improve my memory.
I love you, 老婆.
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