This is a small space for me to share my ideas, opinions and thoughts. It is actually quite a private space, but if I want to share it with the person I love.
Wednesday, 23 November 2016
Change
Monday, 21 November 2016
Nervousssss
Tuesday, 15 November 2016
Part 2
Monday, 14 November 2016
A dream
Sunday, 13 November 2016
Coming weeks
Thursday, 10 November 2016
A vision
Wednesday, 9 November 2016
A drive
Tuesday, 8 November 2016
In between a game of badminton
What does driving and plating badminton has in common? They require utmost concentration. If I don't focus in driving, I will die. If I don't focus on badminton, I lose.
What does washing dishes and cleaning my house have in common? They are such mundane tasks, I can do them without much concentration.
What am I trying to say?
There are times when I absolutely need to drive or play badminton. Sometimes I really need to take a long drive all the way to KK. Because those are the times when I am very down and depressed, and I know that no matter how much I think about my troubles, I won't solve it. So I just need to forget about them. By doing something that requires my utmost concentration.
There are times when I absolutely need to clean my house or wash the dishes. Those are the times when I am very troubled, but I need time to think. I believe that when I do extremely mundane tasks, I will free up my mind to think about my troubles.
Just now, I played badminton but somehow I thought a lot. Maybe that's why I lost. Because somehow now, I can't concentrate.
老婆... If you will still have me, I want to continue being with you. I still wanna marry you. And I still wanna spend the rest of my life with you. Because truly, I'm sorry. And I want to apologise for scolding you. For being emotional this few days. For forgetting stuff.
Please forgive me. I want to love you more. I want to try harder. I want to make notes and take ginkgo to improve my memory.
I love you, 老婆.
Monday, 7 November 2016
Blame
https://www.psychologytoday.com/blog/compassion-matters/201302/stop-the-blame-game-in-your-relationship
Friday, 4 November 2016
I saw an angel
When you walked out to my car, my heart skipped a beat. I never thought I would see such a beautiful sight. Even more unbelievable that you are my girlfriend and my future wife. I'm so happy to see you. Did you realise? Every time I see you, I smile... Because when I see you, I can't help but smile.
Today I was held back late. But in the end, even though I know I will be very late, I still want to come back because I want to see you. I wanna meet you. I wanna hug you.
Seeing you will make me so so happy.
I'm quite tired also now... I love you my dear. Please always be with me.