If being in a relationship is
considered a gamble, then loving someone would definitely be a risk. And I have been taking a big risk these past
few weeks. I am letting myself fall
deeper and deeper in love with you. Looking
back, I realise that there is also a reason why I never want to let myself fall
so deeply in love. It is because the
deeper I fall in love, the more of my heart I hand over to you, the easier it
is to feel hurt. Even the smallest and tiniest
matters can cause a bleed in my heart.
I know you care so much about
me. And I know you worry about me a
lot. And I know I like to procrastinate
and I always forget about stuff. Which is
why I understand why you are often worried about me. You are worried I would forget something
important. And I really appreciate it
when you remind me about things.
Sometimes though, I hope you don’t
remind me so often. Don’t get me
wrong. I like how you care so much about
me. And you understand me so well, so you
remind me about things. But there are
reasons why I never talked to you about work, or my assignments. We are often very busy. I always have stuff to worry about, like school
work and assignments. And yes, they
often cause me to be stressed. But spending
time with you, talking to you, chatting with you, is my way of dealing with the
stress. Just chatting with you makes me
feel better. Talking to you, I can
forget about my worries and my stress.
Which is why when I am talking to
you or chatting with you, I just want to focus on you and think about you. I don’t want to think about other stuff. It doesn’t mean that I ignore all my work and
assignments. I still remember them and
do them when we finish talking or chatting.
Even if it is just for a few minutes, or half an hour, please just let
me enjoy our time together.
Please don’t take our time
together away. Or bring our outside work
into our relationship. I hope when we
talk, chat or spend time together, we are just focused on each other. We already have such a busy life. And we have so many worries already. And we are so far from each other. So when we do have time together, let us
spend that time just enjoying each other’s company, forgetting about other
stuff okay? We can get back to our lives
when we spent our time together.
The reason I am telling you this
is because I love you very much. And I have
surrendered my heart to you. If you
choose, you can pierce it every day. You
can hurt me every day and torture me all the time. But I love you, and I trust you. And I hope you will understand how I feel. So let us be even closer than ever
before. Let our relationship grow
stronger okay?
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